I have some exciting news. Well, more exciting to me than to you, but I'm gonna tell you anyway.
I am going offline until mid February.
I know, I know, my jaw wants to hit the floor when I think of it too. But the Lord has been dealing with me over my time management when it comes to the internet and all my blog/hub pages/FB activities. Namely, my time management skills leave much to be desired.
Our church, Velocity, is going through a 40 day fast to prepare for a relaunching and a refocusing of the ministries we provide to our community. Our pastor asked us to consider picking something to give up so that we can use that time to pray for this new, exciting time ahead of us.
I immediately thought of going offline, wrestled with it for several hours and then dismissed it because I have so many commitments online via this blog, online friendships and time to waste on FB. So, I picked something different to fast. When my husband and I talked about the fasting on the way home from church that evening, he mentioned the second thing I had been thinking and I took that as confirmation that it was the right choice.
I thought I was off the hook from
We've only been fasting since Tues the fifth of January and I had been thinking about the fact that even though I was fasting this certain thing, it really didn't give me any more time to be with God. And I was kinda feeling that it was going pretty easily. Too easily.
And it made me uncomfortable that I was so well, comfortable.
Then came church this morning and Pastor Tom gave a message that was for me. Thankfully, PT was kind enough to direct his comments to everyone in the room, but make no mistake, God was speaking to me. And exactly what I had been thinking about all the way to church and during worship time. I knew I needed to turn up the heat a little and make a bigger sacrifice.
So, I've gone back to my original idea, that now I believe was actually God speaking to me in the first place (I'm a slow learner, what can I say?) and I am going offline until mid February. (BTW, The Calm One and I are still fasting the other thing too. Because we made a commitment. Because it's important too. But it just wasn't personal enough for me.)
I do have several commitments that I intend to fulfill - reviews and such. And a post or two I've already written that have been scheduled to post for several days anyway. But other than that . . . I am using the time I would spend online to pray for the relaunch of our church, focus more attention on my kids, but most importantly, give God a chance to not have to try to speak to me through all of the electronic clutter that I've put between us.
I want more time to be still and know that He is God. And in control. And worthy of more of my attention.
I want to give Him more of a chance to use me, to fill me and make me more like Him.
Don't worry, I'll be back. You can't get rid of me altogether! Though, I'm not sure yet how things will change once I return. I'm not going to try and figure it out. God will let me know, I am confident. Because for now I am going to
Be Still . . .