I have noticed that there are varying levels of openness of people who participate in the blogosphere. Once in awhile I come across blogs that are way TMI, but I usually stick with mom bloggers and many of them are Christians. So, I stay fairly insulated from that kind of thing and the TMI posts that I have come across have been few and far between. This, I am thankful for.
Recognizing that we all have differing levels of TMI and how much we are willing to reveal about our real lives, I have mainly dealt with generalities in my posts. I think in some ways I am ready to change a little bit of that. In the spirit of transparency and trying to ignore the fact that it leaves me somewhat vulnerable, I give you my post for today.
I am a melancholy. A hard-core, without a doubt melancholy. I do have a few characteristics of the other temperaments and it's a good thing or I may be completely unbearable to live with. If there is a negative side to situation, I've already thought of it and imagined how it could get even worse. And then I talk it to death while The Calm One's eyes glaze over and he begins to look like he may weep from boredom, frustration and bewilderment. Not necessarily in that order. Just sayin'.
I cannot change the fact that I am a melancholy, but I can let God rearrange my perspective. I decided when I started this blog that I was going to change my focus and look for the joy in every day situations that came along.
Notice, I did not say the good. Certainly, the good is a part of the joy. But finding the joy encompasses a decision to embrace and celebrate the good. And in doing so, I am embracing and celebrating God, because every good and perfect gift comes from God.
17Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.
James 1:17 (King James Version)
Still with me? Good.
I am also an incredibly fearful person. A fearful melancholy is a sad and scary kind of person to be. I am thinking . . . that statement is somewhat redundant. And there goes an oxymoron to even things out . . .
Anyway, I am not so fearful as to be paralyzed by anxiety in everyday situations, but I can easily see myself heading that way sometime down the road. This doesn't require much imagination on my part is all I'm sayin'.
I am especially fearful of my health. I am incredibly over weight for my five foot frame. And it's begun to take it's toll. Though I am making physical changes in my life, the emotional and mental changes are more of a challenge. When I think about my weight and my heart health, I am anxiety ridden, the imagination acts up and the Melancholy in me rears her ugly, fearful head.
The joy is that I have a solution: A God who loves me just the way He created me - a lumpy mess of flaws. He has given me tools to combat my fear, my anxieties and melancholy. I can cry out to Him. I can read His Word and be comforted.
This Melancholy can find joy and celebrate!
Tonight I Googled devotions when you are fearful. And the primary verses that came up in relation to that search was Psalm 23. Um, hello, I've been in church for 37 years and could not come up with that on my own?! Duh.
I know this chapter. Heard sermons, memorized it as a kid, the whole nine yards. Tonight, I started praying it. And it gave me the Peace I needed. And I began to celebrate. My cries to God became declarations of His goodness and mercy and my thankfulness to serve such an awe-inspiring God.
My activity must've alerted the natives because Cherie bounded into my room, wanting to know what the fuss was about. And I began sharing the 23rd Psalm with her. And I prayed it over her. We began to laugh and giggle and talk about how Good God is. We had our own little God Is Good party.
Take that Miss Melancholy! And, honey, hunker down because there's more where that came from.
I have seen this list several places in the past and just recently came across it again here.
EMERGENCY PHONE NUMBERS
When in sorrow, call John 14
When men fail you, call Psalm 27
If you want to be fruitful, call John 15
When you have sinned, call Psalm 51
When you worry, call Matthew 6:19-34.
When you are in danger, call Psalm 91.
When God seems far away, call Psalm 139.
When your faith needs stirring, call Hebrews 11.
When you are lonely and fearful, call Psalm 23.
When you grow bitter and critical, call 1 Corinthians 13.
For Paul's secret to happiness, call Colossians 3:12-17.
For idea of Christianity, call 1 Corinthians 5:15-19.
When you feel down and out, call Romans 8:31-39.
When you want peace and rest, call Matt. 11:25-30.
When the world seems bigger than God, call Psalm 90.
When you want Christian assurance, call Romans 8:1-30.
When you leave home for labor or travel, call Psalm 121.
When your prayers grow narrow or selfish, call Psalm 67.
For a great invention/opportunity, call Isaiah 55.
When you want courage for a task, call Joshua 1.
How to get along with fellowmen, call Romans 12.
When you think of investments/returns, call Mark 10.
If you are depressed, call Psalm 27.
If your pocketbook is empty, call Psalm 37.
If your loosing confidence in people, call 1 Corinthians
If people seem unkind, call John 15.
If discouraged about your work, call Psalm 126.
If you find the world growing small, and yourself great, call Psalm 19.
Emergency numbers may be dialed direct. No operator assistance is necessary. All lines are open to Heaven 24 hours a day!
Feed your faith, and doubt (and fear, thank goodness) will starve to death!